Just some thoughts

I haven't been doing much writing lately. Life has taken quite a change. Suddenly, for the first time in a very long time, I have free time. It's lovely but very strange. I'm sometimes not sure how to fill my days, but quickly they fill themselves and I find myself in bed at night thinking, "Where did that go?"

Pastry school is coming along very well. I had a revaluation recently and realised that as soon as I do my work experience I will be a qualified chef. Do I feel ready for this? No, not at all, but it is a starting block. I don't think we ever really feel ready for much in life. All my training, stress, and sweat in the kitchen has lead up to this...but it's only really a starting block.

I wish they gave courses like pastry school for relationships. I have spent the year in and out of love, trying to work out how I feel through my cooking. Sometimes I feel like I have progressed, other times not so much. I have learnt a lot about meringues, yeast, meat, vegetables, stocks, and sauces...but when sitting upon the edge of a romance I look in and feel confused.

If someone wrote a cook book for love, with all the recipes...I would buy it. I would cook every recipe, and try try try to comprehend this confusing thing.

As no one is planning this that I know of, I will just stumble along happily. Hoping I get it right.